I Am Enough

“Can’t fix stupid”

I am literally talking about myself. I have been through many ups and downs – I was maturing and growing; yes even at the age of 36. I was becoming the woman I wanted to be, growing each day – becoming hardened, yet with a soft heart.

I fell off and fell off hard; the band wagon that is. I took steps backwards and it isn’t a fun feeling.

I struggle with being a codependent to those I “think” I can help. I know I can’t help those who don’t want help; but I continue to try.

This is where I fell backwards and took 15 steps back when I was 10 steps ahead. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I’m a benefit of a doubt person – I am the one to only cause my own heartache.

Then, I get backlash from those I “try” to help and it’s my fault; EVERYTHING is my fault. But really, I know it’s not my fault, for other peoples feelings or actions – people are who they are, but I do know it’s my fault for allowing those people to be allowed to treat me that way. So really, it is my fault, my fault for hurting, my fault for allowing this bad behavior or old behavior to continue.

I am hurting because I allowed myself to hurt, to open up to someone I thought I could trust; which I can’t. With this, I have to remember the pain I caused my own self; to learn from this mistake, which I will.

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At least it was only a couple days I took these backwards steps. Maybe it was meant to be to remind me of who I am. Because I am enough; I am enough for myself, for my children, for my friends and for my family. They love me and I love them, unconditionally. We don’t say mean things to each other, even when we are mad at that person.

Alcoholics seem to be more hurtful than family and friends. They want you to feel their pain. And that is not ok. It’s not ok, when that person doesn’t want help – even when the problem is admitted, or thinks they can do it by themselves. Because the cycle will continue and you will feel their pain, deeper than they feel their own pain.

Alcoholism, is a terrible disease. It ruins families, it ruins relationships, it ruins everyone’s life whom are involved with the alcoholic. Too many people are struggling day to day; people like me who are the “helpers” and people like them who are the “alcoholics”. Both sides hurt, both sides put the blame on each other. This disease destroys!

It’s a tough and rough world out there and you just got to keep going. Hold your head high, because other people’s opinion of you is their opinion and most of the time it’s not true. Usually, it’s because those people are mad at you, usually for calling them out and on their wrongs, so they HAVE to make it your fault, that you are the problem and not them. Or, your hobbies are a problem, to make their problem justified – because it’s something you love to do. It becomes a problem when the issue affects your relationships and your life – that’s the difference between an addict and a normal person who enjoys their hobbies.

I can’t even say “normal”, because we don’t know what normal is, but we do know what the “norm” is. To me the “norm” is living my life to the fullest I can get it to, at the moment in time. To experience things and not let people down. (I’ve let people down, trust me, but I’ve learned from it). Addicts don’t learn!

I know that I am not alone. I know there are other women and men who are feeling the pain I have felt. Letting go is your first step and we can do it. We are strong and we are enough!

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